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(re)calculating.

mjkimpan  —  July 18, 2013 — 2 Comments

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i’m what you might call ‘directionally challenged.’

i get it from my mother.  the woman could get lost in even the most familiar territory – all it would take is one, simple detour.  regardless of how many times we’d been down that road, no matter how clearly marked the signs were, we would end up getting side-tracked and derailed from our initial destination.  often times, we’d be more than fashionably late.

it seems i’ve inherited her lack of an internal compass, which is one reason i’m grateful for technological advances in recent years. GPS on your phone. Google Maps.

iPhone apps are my friend.

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be you.

mjkimpan  —  February 1, 2013 — 6 Comments

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a classic rabbinical story tells of the great rabbi zarusa, who lay upon his deathbed at the end of an extraordinary life – yet he was agitated, and greatly disturbed.

his students, who surrounded his bedside as he took his final breaths, in a confused attempt to console him asked, ‘rabbi – why are you so sad? after all the great things you have accomplished, your place in heaven is assured!

‘i am afraid!’ zarusa replied. ‘when i get to heaven, God won’t ask me, ‘why weren’t you more like moses?’ or ‘why weren’t you more like king david?’

he’ll ask me, ‘zarusa – why weren’t you more like zarusa?‘ and then what will i say!?!

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sometimes, showing someone love is as simple as having a conversation.

sometimes.

mirror, mirror.

mjkimpan  —  August 28, 2012 — 7 Comments


where sin abounds…

i’ve often found myself in denial of my own depravity, ignoring the seriousness of my own sin.

i rarely find myself offering the same oversight toward the shortcomings of others.

particularly when there’s an emotional investment at risk, we become self-protective and point out how we’ve been wronged and wounded by others. we demand some form of punitive justice merely to make ourselves feel better.

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dirty.

mjkimpan  —  August 23, 2012 — 24 Comments

God wants you to get dirty.

we often fool ourselves into believing the sanitized lie that we’re all cleaned up. we posture and present ourselves to have it all together, when in reality we are chasing after a false definition of life – or desperately avoiding a false definition of death.

this pursuit of a false identity defines us and hinders our ability to grow. ‘getting all cleaned up’ is really just a mask. we’re play acting. hiding. faking. running.

it’s hard to partner with God in the tilling of the soil of our hearts.

our hands get dirty. and God wants that.

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turn here.

mjkimpan  —  July 24, 2012 — 56 Comments


i’m what you might call ‘directionally challenged.’

i get it from my mother.  the woman could get lost in even the most familiar territory – all it would take is one, simple detour.  regardless of how many times we’d been down that road, no matter how clearly marked the signs were, we would end up getting side-tracked and derailed from our initial destination.  often times, we’d be more than fashionably late.

it seems i’ve inherited her lack of an internal compass, which is one reason i’m grateful for technological advances in recent years. GPS on your phone. Google Maps, Mapquest.  iPhone apps are my friend.

no matter the final destination, these modifications in navigation and orientation have increased anyone’s ability to ‘get there.’  enter a starting point, enter an end point, and follow the directions turn-for-turn.

but that’s not how life works.

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ouch.

mjkimpan  —  April 29, 2012 — 25 Comments

God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pain :: it is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.
–cs lewis

we often say that we can’t hear from God. we wish he spoke more clearly. was more present. sometimes our prayers feel like they’re launched towards a Divine silence.

we hardly even expect that we’ll hear a response.

could it be that one reason we don’t hear God’s voice is that we try so hard to avoid pain at any cost? could it be that God is trying to speak to us, yet we fill our lives with distractions that drown out his soft whispers, ignore our consciences and run from the very pain he is seeking to speak to us in?

in the midst of my own pain, i find myself clinging to what is most important. when i feel anguish, more often than not i am drawn to a place of desperation and find myself seeking God in a way that (though i hate to admit it) puts to shame the apathy with which i seek him in my comfort.

could it be that in pleasure, conscience and pain what God desires is to awaken and arouse what is my deepest desire and most passionate longing – for him?

it’s worth considering.

and perhaps worth embracing pain when it’s present instead of running the other way.

SSD. day five.

mjkimpan  —  April 19, 2012 — 11 Comments

some final thoughts from dr. larry crabb’s school of spiritual direction with richwoods christian church ::

you cannot be engaged in everybody’s hurts. but we must ask the question, ‘am i involved in at least a few peoples’ hurt?’

the cross needs to be made central in our efforts of community. we do this through a humble brokenness over our own sin, present in each one of us, and a desire toward the hope of heaven.

teaching in a church is important, but it is not sufficient.

education cures ignorance; but it does not cure the flesh.

brokenness is necessary for passion-filled dynamics to be changed.

the story of the soul is the story of relating; so good conversations must reframe pain into the context of relationship.

there is not a person in the world who feels totally known.

SSD. day four.

mjkimpan  —  April 19, 2012 — 56 Comments

more thoughts from larry crabb’s school of spiritual direction with richwoods christian church ::

only when we’re way down do we look way up.  brokenness is an opportunity to see the heights.

recognize the swirling of the spirit in your soul.

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SSD. day three.

mjkimpan  —  April 17, 2012 — 9 Comments

continuing in the series of conversations from dr. larry crabb’s school of spiritual direction i find myself overwhelmed with multiple threads of thought, desire, longings and fears – all of which generate a passionate curiosity and are perhaps worthy of deeper exploration.

particularly as we discussed masculinity and femininity — a topic i’ll write separate posts for entirely, and what larry’s forthcoming book will be about — there was a wave of considerations and reflections.

apart from that, here are some other thoughts and questions that surfaced in day three of our time together ::

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