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(good) gracious.

mjkimpan  —  September 18, 2013 — 6 Comments


i’ve contemplated writing this post for about a week.

as someone who is positioned as a bridge-builder between opposing world views – as someone who claims to follow jesus and is about the business of reconciliation and peacemaking – i am acutely aware of the importance of the words i choose.

because words matter.

yet it is precisely because words matter that it is incumbent upon me to write this post.

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mjkimpan  —  June 14, 2013 — Leave a comment


lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil –

it is difficult to imagine praying this prayer on my way to a strip club.

or while meeting with friends, plotting revenge against someone who has wronged them.

or while heading to the bars with the intention of drinking to excess.

this line of christ’s exemplary prayer, like others, seems to have more to do with our own choices and behavior than it does with supernatural intervention at the hands of the Divine. this prayer is not bent toward manipulating God to do our will, but rather a posture of prayer which encourages us aligning our will with God’s.

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all things.

mjkimpan  —  November 28, 2012 — 16 Comments

as i relayed the details of a past of which i’m not proud, my new friends listened intently. it’s never easy to be openly vulnerable with the dark corners of the past. some pieces of my history i’ve left far behind, and others linger in their effect on my every day life.

still, as i spoke, we each sensed a truth that was present in the conversation ::

‘The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern.

Beautiful people do not just happen.’
— elisabeth kübler-ross

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it’s coming!

mjkimpan  —  October 26, 2012 — 38 Comments

every once in awhile, something exciting happens in my life.

sometimes the surprises are welcome – and other times they’re just about the worst thing i could imagine. you never know, with me. often the surprises aren’t predictable… but then there are times when i can see it coming – and like the final tile in a row of dominos, i just brace myself for its impact.

this coming monday, i have an announcement to make – one that is both surprising and welcome. be sure to subscribe to the blog or check back to find out what it is – and come along this journey with me.

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top 5 of 2011.

mjkimpan  —  December 29, 2011 — 7 Comments

here are the most viewed posts of 2011 at the WayWard follower ::

5. ride the wave.

4. day dreamers.

3. series review.

2. al mohler, mullets and gay marriage.

1. anti-gay? 

a BIG ‘thank you’ and happy new year to all my readers – looking forward to where 2012 takes us.

ride the wave.

mjkimpan  —  November 1, 2011 — 16 Comments

i’ve been doing a lot of thinking through and learning about surrendering
the illusion of control.

to be perfectly frank, some of the problems in my life seem insurmountable.  some of the opportunities seem equally as daunting.  i often find myself questioning what to do or how i can even manage to keep my head above water.  like standing on a beach watching a tsunami about to crash into the shore of my life, at times
i feel utterly helpless.

and i am. utterly. helpless.

my friend and boss (at jobs one and two), tim barnes, said this to me :: ‘my advice? just ride the wave, michael.  grab a surfboard and enjoy. see where it takes you.

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surrender. (2 of 2)

mjkimpan  —  August 13, 2011 — 14 Comments

in terms of our spiritual journey, we’re CALLED to surrender.  we’re called to growth, to maturity and movement.  in essence, we’re called to change.

yet we resist.

we resist not only because change is embarking upon the unknown, unfamiliar and uncomfortable, but because more often than not, change means giving up control.

and we like control.

when i can dictate the areas in which i’m growing and changing, i’m still in control.  i can develop a plan that fits into my life and schedule without disturbing my comfort level.  i can mature without looking like i’m frail and helpless.  i can grow and still keep my hypocrisy.  i can learn and still hold onto my intolerance, pride and judgment of others.

yet when we surrender… when we give up control and say with boldness and genuine humility, ‘God, do in me whatever you will,‘ that’s a different story.  he starts messing with the areas of our lives that we’ve ignored.  he starts doing things in our hearts and confronting areas that we’ve been too weak, too prideful or too scared to address.

and the results are beautiful.

the question is, are we at the point of surrender?  are we ready to give up and raise the white flag?  are we ready to be wrecked and overcome?

surrender. (1 of 2)

mjkimpan  —  August 12, 2011 — 9 Comments


miriam webster defines surrender this way :

1 a : to yield to the power, control, or possession of another upon compulsion or demand <surrendered the fort>

b : to give up completely or agree to forgo especially in favor of another

examples of surrender

• The enemy finally surrendered after three days of fighting

• The gunman surrendered and was taken into custody.

• The troops were forced to surrender the fort.

interestingly, none of these examples are positive.  by definition, the implication is that no one would willingly seek out the opportunity to surrender.  it’s essentially admitting defeat.

surrender = defeat.

when we surrender, we admit that we’re not good enough…we can’t keep fighting against a better force.  we’re not strong enough…we can’t overcome the opposition.  we’re not  smart enough…we can’t find another way ‘out’.  we have to give up. we are defeated.

surrender sucks.